My apologies...
For I'm not myself,
as of late.
I feel apprehensive
about laying myself prone,
before the eyes of this
watching
and critical
mob mentality crowd.
Afraid, that someone
will see behind
my shroud
and become
too close,
for my comfort zone.
Fearful,
that with wounds,
wide open and vulnerable,
the salt will be poured,
by those who wish
to inflict my mind
with their poison.
Wary,
of their false smiles
that only mask
their deeply imbeded
hatred
and desire
to drag me under.
So I engaged
my safe-mode
by shutting down,
turning off,
and allowing admittance,
to no one.
Its easier this way.
Risk-free and painless.
By being,
not myself,
no one can hurt something,
they cannot approach.
No one can see
my scared little child,
that clings to my skirts,
with eyes wary and widened,
her little form
bruised and beaten.
Nor can they do her,
any more harm.