This is my downtime.
The moments I'm lost,
scared and teary eye filled.
When tomorrow seems
too painful to wait upon.
These are the days,
that lonliness
seems so much more intense,
so much more apparant,
with no one to talk to.
This is my downtime.
When I wish that
'my day,'
were written in
'The Book.'
Scrawled upon
today's pages.
These are the seconds
of life that drip by,
lethargically,
as if taunting in reminder,
that I have no one,
no one to call friend.
No one to call.
This is my downtime.
When I feel
all the more strongly,
the eyes of hatred,
peering into my soul
and marring my heart.
These times when sobs,
are gutteral and cry out
for understanding,
for acceptance,
for love.
This is my downtime.
When the pain
is all controlling
and leaves me
writing upon this
bottomless floor.
Where the only thing,
that seems like relief,
would be to sleep tonight,
deeply,
never again to wake
to another taunting
and pretend sunrise.
This is my downtime.
Where all I want to do,
is run blindly into
the darkened abyss
I call,
my life.