Too often, I feel this stupor,
one of being disconnected from myself
as though watching the scene from above.
Pills, capsules, manufactured relief,
fleeting as it may be,
poison my system like toxic waste
and leave me without simple control
over my own being.
I exist in this drug-induced coma, via perscriptions,
seeing this life through
glazed eyes and amber plastic containers,
that dim and blur any vision of normalcy.
And yet, sometimes I think of them
as my only hope-
My only hope of escape.
How simple would it be, with so many
so close at hand?
How easy to swallow one too many.
One bottle too many.
Too easy-
and yet, too very hard.