I'm trying too hard it seems,
to put my thoughts to words.
All I feel right now is sadness,
my mind is just too blurred.
I think of something happy,
and how much I want to write.
But there is only sorrow,
no matter how hard I fight.
There's things I want to say,
ideas form in my mind.
I try to put them to paper,
but my brain won't let them unwind.
Why do I feel so guilty,
for wanting to write and smile?
I know that I'll be able to write again,
Its just going to take me a little while.
Then I can let them out once more,
let all the happiness grow.
When this poetic pause has ended,
my words will surely flow.