His wings are stretched.
His room is being packed
into boxes.
His childhood,
stored away in my closets.
I watch, silently,
nodding and smiling
as he shows me various things
he's bought to set up house,
but inside,
my heart breaks.
I try to get caught up
in his excitement
and part of me
is happy for him.
But part of me aches
the way a mother aches.
He confides in me
that he's a little scared,
never having been away
from home
and the look in his eyes says,
"I've never been away from Mom"
I know there comes that time
in a parent's life,
when children must go out
into the world.
But wasn't it only yesterday,
that he was born?
It seems that way at least,
as I look at my 19 year old son,
thinking,
"He's my first to fly."
and already my nest
feels emptier.