I stepped into the tent.
I thought I was prepared.
How wrong I was...
My eyes quickly filled
with tears
as they scanned pictures
of those who perished.
My throat constricted
with hiccupping sobs
as I looked upon remnants
of what once was.
Before that day.
Lining the tent walls
and weighing down tables...
Debris.
Tattered jackets
that firefighters wore.
A cell phone
a business-person held.
(perhaps to make that final call)
Battered doors of police cars.
Pieces of signs...street signs,
store signs, one from a Tower
with only half the words
remaining.
Chunks of stone and rubble.
Twisted skeletons
of metal and steel.
A section of
an airplane.
Parts of automobiles
and rescue vehicles.
Just small pieces
of what
once made up
huge structures.
Just small fragments
of what
once made up
human lives.
Now reduced
to indiscernible
crumbs.
Screens of televisions
and computers
replay the images,
the sounds,
the horror.
From a speaker,
'Taps' is played
over and over.
Viewing and hearing
all this
brings me back
and once again
my grief pours out.
I am not alone.
Many are openly crying
and grieving along.
At the end of
the last table
sits something
so everyday,
so inane.
But it spoke
volumes to me
the moment
I saw it.
Not part of
the wreckage.
But a solemn box
of tissues.
Awaiting to absorb
the tears
and grief
of all of us.
A 'temporary fix.'
For inside of me,
when tears
are not
visibly falling,
I will always
be crying...
For that day
in September.
For those lost,
innocent victims.
For the ones
left behind.
For America.
For what I saw...
2002