I was obliged to get up early.
Experiencing
a peculiarly human phenomenon
I did not feel particularly
Human.
'I suppose this day is going to be a
very long torment!'
and holding this fatalistic view like a baby
I thought myself very brave!
At Interpoint.
Streaks of Nausea.
THE ATMOSPHERE IS A METRIC TONNE OF WAVES!
I CANT ESCAPE MY EYES! OH MY GOD THE AIR IS FAKE!
I AM SO DANGEROUSLY HUNGRY! BUT THE SANDWICHES ARE FULL OF DEATH!
I stand aghast pinching a roast beef
but the sandwich just seems
empty.
I hide in my arms...
... I awake in the streets seeking solace I
hide in a bookshop I smell the poetry of
yellow pages and strings. I'm broke.
A pretty girl comes in looking bookish and
eyes books, I eye here. I imagine our-romance
of sofas and dust mites and dim lights.
I imagine I approach her saying ,'what are
you looking for?'
I leave the shop empty-handed.
And then I am home, I recline on a sofa
and televisual light freeze-dried euphoria
and I am watching a Princess visit the fat
and she's stroking the bland mother's hair
and the bland mother breaks 'I'M FAT!'
and she doesn't even know why
nor that she cries for the anonymous herds
all of them
pathetic
the princess, heartbroken
unmake-up'd
she cries too
and then I go to sleep.