Laying here
Lighting up another cigarette
Thinking it might burn him away
Trust me
I tried the long
And arduous day
Filled with productive bits
In the end sunken
With thoughts of him
Drowning my mind
In a wash of regret
Thinking
I should not have let him
Go
But what could i have done
What can anyone do
So now the laying
The brooding
And a small pile of
Burnt out cigarettes
Embodying that little monster
Grief
But they don't
And doesn't
Burn him out
Love is powerful
They say
And they are right
But when it sticks too deep
And claws through the heaps
Of nothingness
And becomes the only thing
Then becomes nothing
It doesn't feel romantic at all
The smoke drifts up up up
All the way
Whispering his
Name
Damn you
You beastly curse
Love
I shall escape you
I will escape you
If i don't
I'll die