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i tHiNk i'M lOst...
For so very long I have been walking around
C L U E L E S S...
Thinking that I understood
What LOVE was really all about
Even when I was cornered from every possible angle
I still found myself trying like hell
To make the best out of making sense
Of its inevitable arrivals and departures
Into and beyond MY life..
The very inception of me
Was so powerfully thorned into a reality
That I could never seem to evade...
My forthcoming into LOVE's tumultuous rhythms
Tossing me and throwing me
Not quite there, but always elsewhere
Losing me and loosing me away from myself
Replacing the peacefulness and joys of my world
With sadness and pain..
For so very long I have drifted
Floating aimlessly upon waves and waves
Of f*cked up situations that have numbed me senselessly
...Detaching the beauty of my color from the hues of my spirit
...Fading me into a black and white
...Graying me beyond recognition
...Setting my cipher into a shade
A dusk so cold and desolated
The nature of my beast fell into shadow
As distinctively ripped away segments of my history
Began to adorn me - quilted and camouflaged
Bidding me intangible to all that I encountered
All that I was
All that I was not
And all that I was supposed to be
As I slowly condescended into a chameleon
Adjusting my attitude and my mind
To co-exist within my existence
For so very long I have been walking around
Just walking..
Around..
And around..
And around..
MoodSwingz_October2003
