I feel,
I hear,
I touch,
I smell,
but yet none of it feels as though it is real.
Do you understand how I am feeling?
I can feel your presence close by, and then it's gone as though it never existed.
I want to hear you say something, just a simple whisper, a guilty pleasure to my ear,
Oh, how i wish those voices didn't fade so quickly.
I touch around me, feeling a glimpse of happiness, praying it will last,
if only I could imagine a life FULL of happiness, does it exist?
Somewhere?
instead, I lay saddened in my fruffled up bed hoping to never be awoken.
I smell absolutely nothing today, it's gloomy and dark and not a smell in sight.
I'll rest my eyes, to only hope too see a beautiful sunflower garden ravishing within a distance.
When I awake I hope I will feel the same, but if you are struggling as I am,
you must know that this is a day by day story of whether I am happy or sad.