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'' I'm Still A Human Being ''
I started out at aged eleven,
By drinking a bottle of wine,
It made me really nauseous,
That should have been a sign.
I then tried a cigarette,
What type, I had my pick,
It didn't matter what it was,
It made me feel real sick.
I drank and smoked for many years,
And sometimes wondered why,
I never knew it’d end in tears,
Now I watch as others cry.
I went out to a wedding bash,
My mate said try a spliff
He said it's not a drug it’s hash,
Go on have a whiff.
Suddenly I felt at ease,
I really felt quite cooked,
Now he said try one of these,
It really got me hooked.
After weeks of trying,
I had to have more blow,
The thought of not supplying,
I didn’t want to know.
Family and friends concerned,
Said this habit must stop now,
Lessons I never learned,
Even when I knew how.
Five years on addicted,
To both drugs and alcohol,
With pain I’m now inflicted,
Am I heading for a fall.
While lying in my bed,
I hear a thousand voices,
They’re talking in my head,
Telling me I have choices.
I told my mate I’m frightened,
He said throw it in the bin,
I’ll get your high heightened,
Let’s smoke some heroin.
He said it wouldn't harm,
It's just not as restrictive,
He then turned on the charm,
By claiming it's not addictive.
I tried it for a little while,
Then it lost its essence,
It then became rank and file,
This drug had lost its presence.
I tried some pills and some coke,
I liked them all a bit,
None of them really spoke,
I then searched for the ultimate hit.
My mate said there’s another type,
I know it'll make you cringe,
Don’t dare listen to the hype,
This is taken by syringe.
By this time, I didn't care,
I told him get me some,
He fully knew it wasn’t fair,
But I was acting dumb.
Now I’d kill to get that feeling,
Quite literally in fact,
By begging and by stealing,
From reality I detract.
My body's full of sores,
Now my organs are infected,
All because of scores,
From drugs that I injected.
The first time that you try it,
You’ll get the ultimate score,
Thereafter when you buy it,
You won't get any more.
I've lost my children and my wife,
My father and my mother,
My home my job my entire life,
Yet still the facts I smother.
I've lost my mates to drugs before,
A lot not just a few,
Though it hurts you to the core,
It will never happen to you.
Addiction spreads far and wide,
It has a terrible effect,
From reality you cannot hide,
You can’t live in retrospect.
I'll never blame another soul,
I’m guilty of self-abuse,
Yes, it’s me who lost control,
The effects have been profuse.
If you're ever offered drugs,
Do put up a fight,
In reality they are for mugs,
Keep sanity in sight.
Regardless of the way I look,
I see my life and cry,
The life that I have undertook,
Means still, I want that high.
Next time you look down on me,
This much I know is true,
You may not like what you see,
But, do think, this could be you.
Circumstances can bring change,
So, try not to be all seeing,
Though what I’m doing does derange,
‘’ I’m Still A Human Being ‘’
