The deed is done, see there lies the bottle on the floor. I lay on my bed waiting for the dark to creep in. Soon all the pain will go away as the shadows consume me. I pray for sweet dreams but I only have nightmares. Tonight I dressed up to look good for god, that is the least I can do since I rebelled against him. I sinned over and over yet he still forgives me. He loves me with all his heart when no one else will. So tonight I am going to meet him. Whether he accepts me is a different story. For now the shadows encase me in darkness as I pray for the nightmares to end.
thanks for the share
I really enjoyed this one, I loved it's subtle suicidal undertones. and the line about dressing up for god seems how you are always fighting him, I completely relate to that :)
Much Love
Ashley