I lie here in bed
all thought of moving have been forsaken.
My soul is tired and I no longer care.
My shoulders ache from the burdens stacked upon them
the burdens I've forced myself to bear.
As the pain surges through me again
the darkness coils within and from it laughter resounds
in my mind it rebounds
from my lips it rings.
The laughter goes on and on
for the pain echoes all around
just as the sounds waves from a gong
and upon it with frenzy does the darkness pound.
Vainly I search for happiness
for joy
but nowhere within can it be found.
The agony rips through me
every nerve is set on fire.
My screams cannot pass my throat
in my soul they echo
in my mind they ring.
Everywhere within me
the darkness begins to dance and sing.
I can no longer feel my bed
or the clothes I wore.
The pain I felt inside me
and that which I felt outside have coalesced.
No longer can I tell up from down nor the air from the ground.
The red waves crash against me
and I am carried away.
The pain surrounds me
and everywhere is it found.
My soul is tired and I cannot begin to care
my shoulders are too tired to bear
the burdens of those for whom I care.
The darkness laughs in triumph
beneath the waves I begin to sink
the pain is too much
I cannot think.
Before the pain envelopes my mind
and strikes my eyes blind
your face appears before me.
I see your special smile that makes me weak
throughout does your laughter ring.
The darkness falters in the song he sings.
A smile touches my lips
tears fall from eyes that no longer see.
In my mind your laughter rings
in my soul louder does the darkness sing.
I release my hold
the waters swallow me and through the pain I fall.
I am thrown against the reef and upon it shatter
for this no longer matters.