A knife in the heart will be less painful
Flame piercing my skin will be hurt less
The rage inside me is yours,
So many tears and hatred filled my soul
you dont care bout it, of course!
I remain in the dark, hoping
find the light !!
at the slightest movement I do to save myself
You pulls on the chain tied around my neck
and brings me back to the hard reality.
Without dreams or real ambition .
A soldier stripped ..
Whose scars bleed ..
My thoughts jostle...
My body goes automatic mode ..
Work hard to survive another day.
My future scares me ..
this is not what I want ..
this is not what I deserved ..
after a life of misery ..
Do I have the right to happiness, too ?!
if i have to join the stars to be happy ..
I will gladly dance with the blades ..
Except that my common sense tells me it'll be too easy ..
I must give a chance to life..
My heart is confused ..
He does not know what he wants ..
Its Normal i guess, with all this hate.
I have the impression not even control it..
the most at all times ..
I'm afraid Of love
i must protect myself!
I cannot remember the last
times I felt the butterflies in my
stomach ..
goosebumps on my body when
a hand touches my neck ..
The indomitable beat of my heart in contact with soft lips
on mine ..
Psychological control you have over me is killing me
gradually ..
I must look for the exit door ..
I have the impression of suffocating ..
I need air.
I need to find the woman I was.
Hoping she still exists.
I sense the crush
On you; like a weight that
You need to get out under from
K.S.
Before it crushes you
Thanks for reading .
Thanks for reading . Sometimes u just got to vent out :p