I'm still stuck on you
And how you pretended
That you truly loved me
And I weak enough,
Vulnerable enough
To believe you really did
I hated you
But still I loved you
With the hopes of us
Being able to make it
If I just let you
Do whatever you wanted
To do to me
Even forcing me,
Forcing yourself on me,
Raping me
While I said stop
And I just lied there
Emotionlesss and silent
Until you were satisfied
Hoping to plant you seed
In my womb
I wish for
The nightmares to stop,
The thoughts to vanish,
The memories to disappear,
But they are stuck
Inside my head,
My dreams,
My thoughts
And I'll never be
Rid of the thoughts of you
Written on: October 17, 2016