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Laments of a Peabrainer

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I was just reading carefully Mr Bernard Shaw's post of today [or maybe yesterday] No.. I shall not belittle that nice old man mentioning that his post inspired this write. Many facts he has stated is absolute with no adulteration.A short while ago [maybe an hour back] I had gone to fetch a small bottle of Dettol antiseptic and a small wad of sterlized cotton. My stock at home had finished so I had to go in the hot midday sun. I had an umbrella with me to protect my pinhead from the scorching sun. Actually last evening there was some rain and it wasn't that bad.Now it is about 1:20 p.m local time and I sit before my PC to scribble my billowing thoughts after reading Austromate's expressive delivery.

There are many "ifs" in my traversed journey which has never been more than mundane and humdrum. A very eventless journey through the path of life. Amate was very right. If I'd have been more accomplished I'd end up with my name as an eminent Physicist .That is IF I'd have had the patience to do my PhD . But no.. I was more interested to begin earning money.Or IF I'd have taken a proper course in Creative Writing in English my poetry reviews would have been published in leading Indian newspapers. I'd be taking certificates of excellence from high flown dignitaries. But no ! that did not happen. Why ? I made a mess of everything. I worked at a job quite diffent to my field of study. No Amate I don't blame my country or my family. I can only blame myself.

I could have been the CEO of my organization. Then why did I not ? I preferred to spend more time with my family [at that time there were 4 elders included] than to be chasing my career. Promotions came by without much effort but with hassles of leaving my family to fend for themselves.Moreover I do NOT have the ability, qualifications or brains to be a high level executive.So I got myself transferred to my home town. No ! I could not prevent the inevitable from happening [death of elders]. Yet I feel happy that I was able to be by their side at their last breathing days.Then I got busy bringing up my children and trying to educate them. How much they have been educated time will tell. No they aren't any celebrities but to me they ARE.

No Amate I'm neither jealous or want more. My Ex-employer gives me some dole on which I'm very happy. I only hope that I'm not a physical or financial burden on any of my family members in future.As for "sacred" .. my family are sacred to me and my moral values are sacred to me. Enough scribbling Dear Amate ... Ever your Imate