I want to leave behind
all the trouble I went through
still stuck on my back.
See that it's part of yourself
dropping is a growth process.
If I could be me
I would be really happy
but there's confusion...
Start being the confused one
who wants to reach reality.
I can't see any sense
after decades of fighting
for some doubtful goals.
All sense is there where you are
right here - at this very moment.
I'm so tired after all
nothing of my plans worked out
I've totally failed.
All served to reach where you are:
the shortcut through illusions.
So then what is life?
Is it just a cloudy dream
longing for sunshine?
Allowing to be touched - hurt
observing - learning - walking.
What else can I do?
I feel stuck in a dense mood
impotent to fly...
Take a deep breath - and let go...
take a rest - let it happen.
BeiYin
30.8.04