I lie naked in a stranger's bed;
Relatively remembering his name.
At the prelude of our tryst he'd said;
"Hi, there. I'm Ted. Glad you came."
Or was it Jed?
Perhaps, Fred?
I don't really know;
Nor, do I care.
He was there.
And for a moment I had escaped;
My iniquity;
By virtue of iniquity.
As this stranger lies dormant;
The ache returns;
Resentfully burns.
My stomach churns.
I slip from the mucky bed;
Unconcerned of Fred;
Or Ted;
Or whatever his name was.
The buzz;
In my head;
Is deafening;
Impairing.
Abhorrence and revulsion;
For what I've done;
What I do.
There is none;
Like you;
Yet, I continue.
Deceitful lies;
My heart is bleeding;
My soul is receding;
This sickness;
A wicked needing.
Tears are streaming.
Suddenly, I'm screaming;
As Ted;
Or Fred;
Eyes gleaming;
Grasps my hair;
Thick and sweaty his hands.
He stands;
Savagely tall.
I'm comparatively small.
He abrades my face;
Without a trace;
Of remorse.
I am a toy;
A carnal game.
Prelude to my demise;
I remember his name.