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How I Used To Be

I feel so empty

Not that I don't have friends

I have plenty



I feel like I can't love

Corny I know

But I feel like I'd rather push and shove



I miss Kasi and the way we we're

But she seems to be doing great without me

So I don't wanna be with her



Sometimes I miss what I had with Jillian

But she has Zach which I'm perfectly fine with

So there no chance of that again



I just don't feel like me

I'm not acting like me

And I think people are noticing



Maybe I'm going back to how I used to be

Like how everyone wants me to be

But I really think that choice should be up to me


Author's Notes/Comments: 

  (Theres your poem Steph!)  Okay I have been told to write a new poem lately and I have and I didn't really want to get to into writing about why I've been miserable lately so I wrote about one of the reasons.  The other shall be kept to myself.  Thank you and enjoy Steph...your the only one who reads these.

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©13 October 2005 - 7:16pm — beautifulpain
13 February 2006 - 1:17pm — Jillian (not verified)
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yeah.. uh.. feelin like a bitch now.. uh.. *nervous shuffle*

13 October 2005 - 8:05pm — The Other/EB (not verified)
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well thank you for writing a poem for me to read. Don't stop writing just cause I'm the only one that reads them. I don't want you to go back to the way you used to be. Cause that would mean going back to you and me hating each other which is not cool. One thing you can never do is go backwards, good or bad, you cannot regress.