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Apologies
Why do you put up with me
Any of you guys
I'm not that good looking, Im not popular
Just tell me why
Kasi you should beat the shit out of me
Each and every time we see eachother
And Eddie it must suck
That I think of us as closer then brothers
Jon I know your sick of me
but you just keep making jokes
you try to cover it up
By all the fun you poke
Megan you should kill me
You got every single right
Cuz I lead you on
So you should kill me at first sight
Jill I know your sick of me
Or at least I think you should be
Then again right now
I feel as if everyone should hate me
Alex you always hit me
And now I wish you were here
To just punch and kick the shit out of me
Until 2006 new years
Alyssa I'm sorry
For anything i've done
I should stay away from all of you
Every last one
I'm ruining your lives
So just tell you truth
Tell me I'm a useless peice of trash
Cuz I know that what you want to do
I just don't like who you've changed.. I'm not sick of you.. I just miss the old Paul who would laugh with and watch movies with me (that's all we ever did) and just talk to me.. Not be a jerk and act like he's better than me..
If you ever want to come back Ruby will be waiting
I've done somethings to people...that I couldn't even imagine if I were someone else...and I hate myself for doing those things...and I always will...and I still think so lowly of myself...but I'm starting to get over it...you're a GREAT guy, and one of my good friends, just try to think a little better of yourself, I know sometimes its a hard thing to ask of someone...but still, try, please
um ya...i don't know why you feel that way, but i'm sorry that you do. ur not useless and i bet you don't ruin everyone's lives. i used to feel that way, and my friend has been making me feel that way ever since late december; so the feeling's kind of stuck in my head now. i hope it goes away, otherwise it'd drive me to suicide, yet i've just gotten out of that last october.
and um, well it's all right; in some way i had a feeling you were going to find it but it doesn't matter. a lot of ppl hurt me...i know you didn't mean to. but really u didn't, if it makes you feel better. i'm sorry she dumped you--she was probably using you, the retarded turd (can i say that about her?). my ex asked me out on sunday and i said yes, but don't worry about you forcing yourself to have no other way but hurt me--i'm really fine, honestly. being friends is cool with me :D. well, hopefully tty soon.
PAUL JONES! dont you ever think of yourself like that....i love you your family and i only joke around when i hit you..i would never ever hurt you out of anger and least of all anger twards you..you couldent piss me off if you tryed ... i love ya and your worth more than you think you are... god why did you think of yourself so lowly....god i would be dead if it werent for you...i would have killed myself if you werent there for me.....i would never even remotly think you ruined my life in aney way....me getting back in touch with you improived my life soo much you have no clue ......
and now eddies turn...PAUL...i to think of us as closer than brotheres and as friens and i would never change that...how can you think like that...i cant express my feelings i will have to talk to you
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Paul,
I know how that goes sometimes. I know I sound stupid and shit...saying that, but, I do. i really like this poem...and, don't think of yourself so badly, it never helps...good job on it.