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How someone makes decisions for you, I will never understand but people have done it for me, and I've let them and when I realize what I've done and wished I'd made my own mind away I know there is nothing I can do but live with it and grow from it, though some decisions are hard to live with. You've got to live with it and try to make it more for you, Such as my parents taking me away from everything I ever knew making me abandon my friends and my life, I find it the most difficult thing to live with but I've got to deal with it and I am slowly but surely I am, I've got new friends woh care for me and how i feel but I will never forget my friends in halifax. I love all my friends and I couldn't get through this without all of you. I know I've gotten annoying and I try so hard not to be but it escapes me. I'm so lonely without love and I sometimes i don't want to find anyone else cause I'm tarrified to get hurt again I just can't handle anymore pain but maybe one day a nice guy will come along but i doubt it cause I will push them all away cause I'm still dealing with everything in my mind heart and soul, and I'm still dealing with all the failures I've had in my life. I must be the biggest let down in this world but i will keep dealing and trying to make a difference to who I am cause I want to be some one knew who doesn't get hurt and who never lets anyone down but till then I will try my besat to be my best but I'll never know anything till I deal with everything I feel and have done.