PostPoems Be Artistic. Be Creative. Be Inspired!

There are so many things I've wanted to do with my life, and yet I am nowhere at all. I've worked hard, I've fought to succeed in life and some how it just hasn't hqppen. Every which way I turn there are barriers I have to work through, problems that need solutions and most of the time I can find the solutions. But there are sometimes there doesn't seem to be a solution or rather one that will work for myself and the kids. I am trying to work hard for them, to be everything they need and for the most I succeed. Don't get me wrong I am not perfect infact I am not at all the mother I dreamed I would be! But everyday since I found out I was going to be a mother I have tried to be better, my focus has always been to do what is best for them. In most all decisions I made I consider how it will affect them, will they be okay, and am I truly thinking of them first. They answer has always come back yes, I have altered my life completely for them over and over and I am truly proud of that fact as well! 

I have been trying to figure out a way to save to move home and have considered every aspect of how it will change my children's lives. I even talk to them on and off on how they feel about the idea and informing them of how our lives will be different! I talk to them about how they wont see the family they have here as often and who they will see more living there, we talk about how they will have to switch schools and that I am certain they will make new friends because they are nice kids and how any kid would be lucky to have them for a friend. I explain how they will see their dad more, that they'll get to spend more time with their dad. I also believe that they need him to be around more even if he is stupid and doesn't realize how lucky he is to have them, or how truly amazing they are. As well I think it would be positive either way, he will have to stop feeding them excuses and actually prove to them that he is someone they can depend on. He will have to try harder to be what they deserve him to be, and hif he doesn't then they will always know they have a mom who loves them Infinity infinity infinity a thousand infinity!!! As my daughter says. They are my sun and my moon, they are my light when all the other lights go out and they just bring out the best in me, most of the time. I will always fight for them and fight harder to be everything and anything they need me to be. I will succeed someday and it will be for the three of us because we are a team.