I am emotional
I cry alot but hate it when I cry
And at times depressed
Even to the point of wanting to end it all
I am loving
When i love I love deeply and passionately
And I can be too forgiving
I am giving
But sometimes I am very needy
I need reassurance
I need to be held
I need to be supported and trusted
I am a mother
That loves her child more than life itself
I am a single mother, on welfare
A mother that was never allowed to be a child
I am angry; I want to scream on the top of my lungs, break things
I am hurt; I want to cry until I am empty of all this pain
I like the quiet od open spaces
I love nature; the sound of the wind through the trees
I am peaceful or rather I long for peace
I am passionate about my beliefs
I long to nourish peoples souls
I am powerful, a fighter
And I am a victim of rape
I snort when I laugh
I am very ticklish
I have way too many clothes and shoes
I can be girly
But I'm not a whimp
I don't eat when I am upset
And drink when I am stressed
I struggle with an eating disorder
I am trusting
But I have a hard time letting people close
I am trustworthy
And I don't lie
Honesty is a value I hold high
I have low self esteem
And I assume others don't like me
Including my family, friends, and lovers
I love thunderstorms
I used to watch them roll in across the prairie
And I love sunshine
I am a small town girl
I hate cities
I am a Pagan, a recovering Christian, and was born a Mormon
I am a lesbian, but am divorced from a man
I love to dance
And I love to sing
I am sometimes too contemplative
I am also too analytical at times
I am always thinking a hundred things at once
I love sex
But I find kissing more intimate than sex
I am not innocent
My innocence was stolen at a young age
I am crazy
I am the product of a shitty family
I am in love with a woman I am not sure I have met
I have been writting her poems since I was a child
I like opera and death metal
I test as a genius on IQ tests
And I flunked out of algebra
I am an artist
I can be a slob sometimes
And I am selfish and I daydream a lot
I bitch a lot too
I feel trapped in this world
I have no real sense of personal identity
I try to like children but most just get on my nerves
I am human
I am worthy of more than I think
I am critical of how I look
I am far mor beautiful than I alow myself to be
I am still breathing
I am real
I exist