that infamous expression....

I feel it creeping, seeping in,

It chokes my heart it sears my skin

No face exists to take your place,

To fill an aching void with grace

The dark does ease these wandering eyes,

But in it shines the truth of lies

I look at you, my insides shatter,

In your world I don’t matter

You left my nerves dispersed; in tatters

But I am more than mounds of matter

Physically is where you’re lost,

And deep inside I pay the cost

I shut off my voice of depth,

To sadly ponder what I’ve left

Expectation leads to disappointment,

But that’s my one and pure enjoyment

Do you think it’s sick? Because it’s true,

I’m trying to get inside of you

Silent words blur my vision,

Articulate with such precision,

It mangles your heart to make decisions,

So you left me dying in this prison

A prison hollow, a prison round,

Where I can scream but there’s no sound

A prison built with silent walls,

So I can crawl down empty halls

I must relay,without delay

About the words you’ll never say,

I must report the price you’ll pay,

Forever’s just a single day

I have motives for all I do,

That’s one thing that’s just not true

My fake world doesn’t spin for you

Don’t ask why, or what, or who,

I said it one, I’ll say it two,

My fake world doesn’t spin for you

I’ll be honest, you’ve kept it spinning

But that’s no good, I’m not winning

So I’ll surrender to this despair,

I’ll whine and moan ‘life’s not fair’

I’ll tell my insides I don’t care

I must deal with what’s been dealt,

What I feel has now been felt

And if a thought of you remains,

I’ll let it go by which it came

Today’s a day and they’re all the same

I’m me, you’re you, we’re not the same

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Intense and hauntingly

Intense and hauntingly relevant. Just beautiful.