"Why?"
I should expect it.
I should be o.k. with it.
It is how things are meant to be.
And yet I desire the touch of
her cheek, her hand, her lips.
I want her to say she loves me.
I wish for one more kiss.
I want her to say she wants to be with me,
as more than just a friend.
But it is not meant to be.
How could she see me in any other light,
than that of a friend.
Like everybody else.
It is the best I can hope for.
Her heart belongs to some one else.
And yet I still desire, yearn, wish and want her.
Why wont I never learn?
Why does my mind play tricks on me?
Why can't it be me she wants?
Why is she willing to settle for him, but not me?
Why does it tear at my heart so much?
Why can't I just let go?
Why?