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Pangit,
I know it sounds silly to thank you for hurting me.
Thank you for doing that...
Thank you!
Coz I found myself back again and realized a lot of things.
If I didnt opened my heart to you, i wouldnt realized that I was inflicting so much pain to myself. Being so numb made me lived like dead. For so many years, Ive been doing that. I was killing myself little by little and subconciously, i was pushing  away every people who loves and cares for me.  I had no emotions and it was dreadful.

Do u still recall what I said to you last time??
That Im not a good person coz Im numb?
That I need to restore myself again?

Well, Im glad that IM BACK...

I always run away whenever someone hurts me or when things gets tough.
For me,thats the only solution to get rid of my aches. I chicken out!!!
I was supposed to do that again two weeks ago when you hurt me. 
Honestly, It was a throbbing,excruciating pain.
Good thing,i never did. 
Thanks to a good friend of mine.
She enlightened my mind through God.

Im fully aware that you're emotionless yet I still chose to be attached with you.
Why?coz you make me happy. I dont know if you felt the same way too.
I showed you the real me through my poems and letters. Though,i had some hesitation and ambivalence while writing those things.lol.
Its not really clear to me,why and what was your reason for hurting me. But that doesnt really matter to me anymore. Its all up to you whether you want to explain to me or not.
I know you made a promised and a promise is a promise. But for some reason,you accidentally/intentionally broke it. I understand... 
Perhaps, I never valued  and ignored you a lot.

Thank you for becoming an instrument to get myself back.
I really miss the real me..lol
That evryday, I wake up in the morning, I smile without any reason.
I also found my happiness. Soo amazin!!
Not with a guy but with myself...
Thanks!!!