WHY?!?!?!?
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Why do abusers abuse?
Is it something they consciously choose?
Why do they do what's been done?
Still hurting, they hurt everyone.
Where is their path to be free?
What'll it take for blinded eyes to see
that pain begets pain, until healed,
& their scars fully faced are revealed.
I wish I knew why abusers deny
that the 'love' they give is really a lie...
How do they not see the wounds to the hearts
their cruel selfish venting imparts?
And where do they run to inside
when the truth can no longer be denied?
When the tears & the bruises remain
& they must face consequences & pain?
I wonder how abusers don't cry
for the past, for the present, & why
can they not see the things that will come
if they continue denying, & they run
from the God who gave them free will,
& who's allowed them to choose pain until
the time will come when they will stand
before Him, & finally understand?
Why do so many abusers remain
unaware they can be free of the pain
they carry & inflict & ignore,
Oh, when will they walk through the door
that will lead to deliverance & peace,
& forgiveness & such sweet release
if repentance is truly expressed,
& their sins turned from,
when they've confessed?
And why do those being abused remain
caged up in the cycle of pain?
Why do they settle for so little,
& decide to stay stuck in the middle
between their abuser & God,
sometimes it just seems so odd
that they can't see what's clear as the day,
& that they're the ones with the biggest price to pay...
...unless they also have children who see
the way their lives don't have to be,
the way they allow hurt to grow
as they hide what they don't want to show...
...yet the bruises are only one way
the scars multiply day by day,
the wounds that still bleed in the night
seek the darkness, & run from the light.
So, why DO abusers abuse?
Why would violence be what they choose?
The truth is only God knows their heart,
& what it will take to impart
truth where the lies have taken root,
healthy, rather than rotten fruit,
a life that can glorify Him,
rather than one bound up in sin.
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Why did I stay as long as I did?
Why didn't I leave when I could?
& where'd I finally find strength to blow the lid
off what was bad, yet presented as good?
Why do any of us do what we do?
Only God knows what we go through,
& it's only Him who can set abusers free,
& the wounded ones He calls home patiently ~
~By Anastazia Rowe~
{Another wounded warrior}
April 16th, 2009.