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ARTIFICIAL PARADOX
ARTIFICIAL PARADOX
Written by Alana Cheng
I feel so stuck
In this artificial paradox
With all of my emotions
Towards myself
That always feel like
They are hitting the rocks
As I have been trying
To make it out alive
Working so hard to survive
While still trying to be able
To have the chance to still breathe
With a lot of love
And with a lot of creativity
That is still left in me
While feeling so stuck
In this artificial paradox
Of all that is hitting the rocks
With all of these locks
That wouldn’t help to open
With the helping attempt of the key
To release all of what I have been
Feeling so deeply
But have never been able
To release so freely until now
As I have felt so stuck
For way too long
For as much as time
Would seem to allow
In this artificial paradox
Of something so real and so fake
By the consumption
Of all that I just can’t seem
To simply shake
With any type of contradiction
With the self-debates
Of a million kinds of fates
By this self-deprecation
That I have fabricated
And scared myself over
Of feeling like I should keep it all
Hidden away
And just be a loner
While telling myself that
I will still have the chance
To give to myself
Of all that I have deserved
For so long
And it’s something
That should never feel wrong
For me to fight through the dark
And to make my mark
As I’ve been trying to reason
So repeatedly with myself
Of no longer keeping my emotions
Hidden away on the shelf
And with all that has been
So difficult for me to shake
For any kind of heavenly sake
For all that I have kept to myself
For way too long
As it could never be wrong
For me to express
Anything of what it is
That I could ever truly
Want so willingly to say
Of knowing that I have kept myself
On the safe side
For way too long
All the while of remaining strong
While feeling so stuck
With all of my emotions
That have been constantly
Hitting the rocks
But nevertheless to anything
I will keep singing
And I will keep expressing
All of who it is that I am
To the world while feeling like
I am constantly crashing
Like the waves onto the rocks
I know that I will still make it through
Ever so strongly
And ever so confidently
Through the very suffocating
Touch of this artificial paradox
