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my absent faith seems to block out the sun

when everything i know is laying at my feet

i feel so unbearably incomplete

god save me from this undoing

if i could just escape this body

i currently only breathe for just the sensation of waiting

yet nothing is coming, nothing will

well nothing worthwhile to strive for.

i have been molded into a shell.

To keep people out.

including myself

if only,

i said it so many times

i always want something more

if only i could teach my self to be satisfied

and yet there i go again, spinning.

you can only dream so much

before you start wishing,

and hoping that everything will change

if only i could grasp more,

and achieve more

then these holes in my life will be filled.

i would have worth

values, morals

and i wouldn't have to strive for acceptance

of myself.

ive done wrong

rarely do right.

these words are my life

laid out and spread out,

for whom it may concern

and sadly they don't concern me

if only i could do myself justice

but what could that bring me

these words are all i know

if only someone were to read them

before i do.

and make sense of it and tell me what to do.

tell me what to feel

what to see

if only i wasn't calling the shots

because i take all the wrong ones.

if only i wasn't blinded

and could see me for me

not my regrets

if only i could see what everyone else sees

than maybe i could understand

but if only these "if onlys" came true

than i wouldn't be who i am

not sure if that's good or bad

you tell me.

these words say it all

its my only story

if only i talked less and listened more

but if only if someone reads these first

then maybe they could tell me how to be