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Have you ever felt like you really fucked everyone over who ever tried helping you, because you threw all your money and time into making the wrong decisions and you know it but are too strung out on denial that you get fucked up every night until you cannot afford food because its hard to cope with the stress of your faulty decisions so you just become a cross addicted asshole because you see you hurt everyone around you. You then end up quitting your second Job because you are too drunk to care about going the work the next day and then later on let down the people who were the closest family by insulting them and you throw yourself into a series of unfortunate bad situations and lose grip on your own reality. Slipping into delusions and nightmares as you struggle tooth and nail to climb all this bull shit. Then you get a ticket for a descent amount of change and in a rage you buy 30 bucks worth of lotto tickets and lose on every single one. Then get way to fucked up at a party and get lost in your own delusions and try talking to spirits and people that are not there to give you the strength to overcome the madness then in the midst of being blacked out you insult everyone in the house then wake up in a closest trembling are tripping your balls off. Feeling stripped of everything and lost and you try calling a bunch of people in your phone to try and bring you back from reality because the walls were talking and provoking you to run from everything and vanish. Then awaken to realize that you need to change yet have no idea how to break the conscious cycle. And closing your eyes just makes reality sting that much more. So you start planning your departure and brainstorm on where to go and try to face all your mistakes you ever made. Walking in circles getting caught in webs of poisonous thoughts. You trip over your inability to be stable. So rip down the walls and let the foundations of your life come crashing down upon you. Leaving you with the only option to start over...