I live like a bird on a wire.
A tight rope walker.
Balancing love and pain.
work and sanity.
leaving me with little filter for profanity.
I find cheap thrills my paradigim to vanity
with an open mind and a vacant heart.
feeding my soul with all sorts of sanctuaries and smoke.
to slip away though the long nights and bitter days.
Leaving everything a haze. Sometimes I reflect and regret.
Others days I noticed the slight effect and change in the pretense..
Everything seems to make a liitle more sense. Yet everything seems to be a little less meanigful.
I hestitated at first to say I am jaded.
becuase I am eroding in emotions.
colors are fading to black and white portraits.
no feeling. numb and vacant.
no warmth to bring in lush and life into anothers world.
I am a monetgiue and a capulet.
at war with myself
with a means of obtaining a love.
But That loves resides in a battlefield.
High tides and blue skies.
I find indearment and beauty in many eyes.
Yet I can never aknowledge these glances
untilt the moment ceases. and stops.
and its downfall. Writings are definitly on the wall.
Its like catching butterflies.
I just let them all go.
I dont pursue what I cant confine.
I seem to oftenely capture hearts.
yet I can never make up my mind.
So I be passive and pretend to be blind.
its really better to just keep these thoughts inside.
so I never really explain why I just vanish after a few weeks of trying.
I live my whole life in fast forward when I am better off rewinding.
many proverbs in mental poverty.
little feeling left with gates on my bridges
that hold many differant kinds of keys and locks.
I am just a shakespear paradox.