I am level headed most days.
But its harder now I am losing strength now
so alone in this part of the year.
I have very little people to consider sincere
so here I am looking at the calander
and valintines day is creeping in closer
I feel weary as cliche as it sounds
I never was picked for a day to go out
I have been left watching the world
be in love I know it will be another one
so why even try to push and shove
my way into beliving I am happy I am alone
so I believe in drinking alone.
Ill be completely out of it before the day begins
just blacked out. I wont even remeber the day and whats within
so I cant say I suffered through another. its my way of coping
I hope its thought provoking Becuase I hate the feeling
that I am once agian that one kid
just wishing to be loved by another
its all I want that feeling of affection
I know its not easy But I can atleast get some attention.
its safe to say nobody will call.
and ill be on my floor unconscious
unaware of it all.