You were there for only so long
I never got to tell you
So now my love is expressed in song
Your kindness and love is all I knew
The times we had
Were always fun
To be able to drive around with you I was always glad
Who knew that could end I was stunned
The stories the late nights
All such great memories
I can remember all the banks all the elevator flights
The moments smiling up at you trying to please
I hope now I can make you proud
I wish you were here
I still talk to you out loud
You always took away my fear
I feel like your being forgotten
I should have made more of the times
But I had no clue then
I look at my self and your words I find
I could sit with you for days
Drive around town
And always something to say
Never failed to bring me up from down
Why can’t you be here
I could use your help
You would surely have something to tell
Help me through the cards I’ve dealt
Anything from you would help me not fail
So smart and honest
You were never beyond my reach
But I never stretched out to you from my nest
I had no clue the problems you could breach
All I want is to just sit with you now
For hours and hours
And talk, talk about now talk about how
How I could be better what I could do to flower
I see how much the same we are
I cherish the time we had but want so much more
Persons we are different but same souls we are
All I can know now is your lore
The legend you are to this family
The friend you are always going to be in my heart
All the people you had to leave and scar on me
I thought we would never part
But when it came time I wouldn’t even go to you
I hurts me now deep in my heart
That I didn’t even try to see you through
Why didn’t I go to my best friends side
That was the least I could have done
All I did was close my mind to fear and hide
All I pray now is that you see how far I’ve come
Look at me and see yourself, please
Though I may fail too often and should put forth more of my best
I know I could be better with such ease
Same as you, we could pass any test
But we never saw how success was only a fraction of the reward
I still don’t know what can come of myself
But using you I can only go forward
And put our habits up on the shelf
The shelf of age and experiences
We own the same shelf laziness, unmotivated, and unworried
I become more you every day your daughter says
I have finally looked at us and see we live by the same creed
One I know needs change and improvement
With work within myself can I be freed
You tell me to use all the encouragement
You gave your daughter to the best man on this whole earth
He tolerates us and pushes me to be all I can
He’s seen the greatness I have inside since birth
I hate that I give him all he can stand
I should be working to bring him happiness
But all I do is shun his help and push him away
With so many crutches I have been blessed
So I have never known that you need to work to play
The greatest motto
Work hard to play hard
From the greatest man I know
I pray that I haven’t pushed him too far
My unfounded fear and arrogant pride keep me from him
I will be the man he knows I can be
I know he will take me back on a whim
But I want to give him what he‘s always wanted from me
For me to be truly happy
The only thing that will give me that is to live up to his legacy
That is the thing I fear most
I fear my heart and its scarcity
Not all is lost
He is here for me and I need to run to my father
He will chart my path
I need to look to him before I stray farther
I don’t want him to lose hope in my math
That I will add up to something wonderful
I can see it in myself
If I could only dig deep enough to reach it I would be grateful
He is the one who will take me to it and share the joy felt
My light will shine though my father it will light his world
I want to give him that burning sun
That greatest star of joy poured form the flesh of me
Both of our dreams achieved as one
I cannot doubt my self any longer
Knowing the strength of the love he gives
Time to flex my greatest strength, my Father
And in my soul that wonderful Grandfather always lives
This is my favorite thing Ive written.
Adam