The Wonderful Grandfather

You were there for only so long

I never got to tell you

So now my love is expressed in song

Your kindness and love is all I knew

The times we had

Were always fun

To be able to drive around with you I was always glad

Who knew that could end I was stunned

The stories the late nights

All such great memories

I can remember all the banks all the elevator flights

The moments smiling up at you trying to please

I hope now I can make you proud

I wish you were here

I still talk to you out loud

You always took away my fear

I feel like your being forgotten

I should have made more of the times

But I had no clue then

I look at my self and your words I find

I could sit with you for days

Drive around town

And always something to say

Never failed to bring me up from down

Why can’t you be here

I could use your help

You would surely have something to tell

Help me through the cards I’ve dealt

Anything from you would help me not fail

So smart and honest

You were never beyond my reach

But I never stretched out to you from my nest

I had no clue the problems you could breach

All I want is to just sit with you now

For hours and hours

And talk, talk about now talk about how

How I could be better what I could do to flower

I see how much the same we are

I cherish the time we had but want so much more

Persons we are different but same souls we are

All I can know now is your lore

The legend you are to this family

The friend you are always going to be in my heart

All the people you had to leave and scar on me

I thought we would never part

But when it came time I wouldn’t even go to you

I hurts me now deep in my heart

That I didn’t even try to see you through

Why didn’t I go to my best friends side

That was the least I could have done

All I did was close my mind to fear and hide

All I pray now is that you see how far I’ve come

Look at me and see yourself, please

Though I may fail too often and should put forth more of my best

I know I could be better with such ease

Same as you, we could pass any test

But we never saw how success was only a fraction of the reward

I still don’t know what can come of myself

But using you I can only go forward

And put our habits up on the shelf

The shelf of age and experiences

We own the same shelf laziness, unmotivated, and unworried

I become more you every day your daughter says

I have finally looked at us and see we live by the same creed

One I know needs change and improvement

With work within myself can I be freed

You tell me to use all the encouragement

You gave your daughter to the best man on this whole earth

He tolerates us and pushes me to be all I can

He’s seen the greatness I have inside since birth

I hate that I give him all he can stand

I should be working to bring him happiness

But all I do is shun his help and push him away

With so many crutches I have been blessed

So I have never known that you need to work to play

The greatest motto

Work hard to play hard

From the greatest man I know

I pray that I haven’t pushed him too far

My unfounded fear and arrogant pride keep me from him

I will be the man he knows I can be

I know he will take me back on a whim

But I want to give him what he‘s always wanted from me

For me to be truly happy

The only thing that will give me that is to live up to his legacy

That is the thing I fear most

I fear my heart and its scarcity

Not all is lost

He is here for me and I need to run to my father

He will chart my path

I need to look to him before I stray farther

I don’t want him to lose hope in my math

That I will add up to something wonderful

I can see it in myself

If I could only dig deep enough to reach it I would be grateful

He is the one who will take me to it and share the joy felt

My light will shine though my father it will light his world

I want to give him that burning sun

That greatest star of joy poured form the flesh of me

Both of our dreams achieved as one

I cannot doubt my self any longer

Knowing the strength of the love he gives

Time to flex my greatest strength, my Father

And in my soul that wonderful Grandfather always lives

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