as i sit here waiting
pondering my thoughts my sighs
i sit here wondering
how i fell from a place so high
its been a long climb back up here
and im not at the peak yet
but its my only fear
that im going to let
let myself think
how your hairline forms on the back of your neck
how just seeing you, makes me think of sex
bout how your shoulders fill out those shirts
how i can stare at you until it hurts
the way your legs show that perfect tan
the way you touch me, amazing hands
like i said, i cant let myself think.
i get so sidetracked
bring myself to the brink
just to realize i still dont have what i lacked
you.
and so i sit here waiting
for my heart to unbreak
pinching myself,
saying im not awake
this is all a dream
a dream i cant take
its still possible you love me
fuck it, im such a fake.