At Rome, In The Early Reign Of Nero

 

[For Deborah, of Fresno; nearly possessed; Saturday evening, September 19, 2015]

 

Some of these local venders have professed

their so-called saving faith in some dead Jew.

And when I heard such travesties expressed,

as if they were self-proven facts, I flew

into a rage with hot profanity.

I had the right and used it blatantly.

Silent terror---part of customer service---

compelled their listening (though very nervous).

I strutted forth my fierce indignity

and dared them all to turn their backs on me---

on pain of seizure into slavery.

 

On learning my physician, Luke, was one

of them who thought a dead man was the son

of some god, I dismissed him from my care

and sought one less misled to better cope

with this enormous bulb beneath my ear.

It tilts my head sideways, and makes my eyes

bulge from their sockets like a bloated fly's.

More than mere inconvenience, I must bear

the symptoms now suggest malignancy,

nor can it be removed by surgery.

My swift decline feels like a downward slope.

I shall not be, all that much longer, here.

 

Those Christians I abused have prayed for me.

I spit upon their hollow charity.

Fully I know who and what I have been.

I hate---despise---and curse those born again.

 

Starward

 

[jlc]

Author's Notes/Comments: 

Several of the words and phrases were provided to me by the person to whom the poem is dedicated, during our phone conversation on the date shown.  In my thirty-three years of full time work, I have never encountered a person as blatantly and explicity evil as evidenced in her statements.

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