You know, I surely miss Paul, that old Jew.
Each time our morning shift began, he knew
that this also signalled the crack of dawn
(gray, silver, then pink streaks across the sky
of Rome). Then he began to pray and cry
(in such a way as I had never heard)
unto his god. And (hang me!) every word
he spoke---to his god or to us---was joyous.
Nor was that just an act meant to annoy us:
rather, he hoped---hearing, we might receive
his faith; and with such confidence, believe
in his god, and a life, eternal, too.
(I did not; and do not now. I fear death---
the nothingness drawn nearer with each breath.)
Then, yesterday, near dusk, appeared the dreaded
court clerk, with guards, to escort Paul's last walk
down that street; then outside the gate, a few
paces into the grass. There, they beheaded
him, where three ancient, sparkling fountains flow.
That empty cell was his; and all his talk
was silenced in the twilight's purple glow;
The eager comfort that I often had
just sitting in his presence is quite gone.
Do not ask me, again, why I look sad.
Starward
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