old garbage

Fill these small empty moments with smiles,
just the few silent piecies of time that crack.
We can make every minute of our lives worth while,
even tho it's easier to go forward than to go back.
Just be sure to watch your step as you walk up these stairs,
keep going up and make sure you never look down.
As long as your heart is working, you'll know that someone cares,
and as long as someone cares, there will never be a reason to frown.
So I'll tell you exactly how I feel, but don't make a sound,
just close your eyes, and fill your heart with my treasure.
I'll share this with you, a valuable treasure that I've found,
within my chest, a heart full of torment and pleasure.
This feeling beholds years, stuffed with laughter and screams.
It's harder than solid tears, but beyond your wildest dreams.
As the fall grows colder, after a perfect summer dies,
our children will get older, like the frozen ocean tide.
I hope you fall in love with the worst moments of our lives,
because these mistakes are the lesson's we will learn,
we grow stronger than the strongest, smarter than the smartest,
on this road of life, we usually don't know where to turn.
But love is what you make it, sort of like a painting by an artist.
Most of these turns are wrong and only your future can fix the past,
but sometimes we come across something in life that shouldn't change.
And learn that time will catch up to you, there's no reason to run so fast.
Just remember what I'm about to tell you,
memories are the only thing about a moment that will last.
We'll try to make every second the best we ever had.

Everyday holds a little bad news,
that I don't even want to hear.
Everyday I find another clue
about why nothing on earth is left to fear.
I've taken everything the devil had to give
and he took my only reason to live.
If only I could go back just a couple miles,
I never would have tryed to make myself smile.
The months have slowly become a nightmare.
I used to be something worth loving and holding,
as if somebody once cared.
But I learned the hardest way
that no one was ever there.
You broke all these promises you can't repair.
It was true love, only because true love isn't real.
True love is only pain, until there's no pain left to feel.
I can draw these problems, but they won't erase.
I can kill the demons, but I'll remember every face.
You can have everything I'm worth,
this precious kingdom of mine, just a feild of dirt.
This is all I am, and this is all I'm worth.
You can have it all, see how much it hurts.

I knew there was a mountain,
That I would have to climb
Just so that I could see you.
But I told you I didn't have the time,
You were begging me to free you
Because my eyes were gorgeous,
And nothing else could color your world.
I told you that you should see beautiful things,
Because you're such a beautiful girl."
But you seemed to be an angel stuck in hell,
Like a princess living on the streets.
You deserved a better life,
Perhaps a kingdom of heaven on the beach.
I had been down for so damn long,
And I wasted so much time.
I loved someone, but I did it wrong,
I never thought love could be a crime.
But your perfection determined me
To get back up on my feet.
I wanted to be loved again,
But I wanted to earn it, not to cheat.
I thought I knew what love really was,
Are learners able to teach?
Because I'll tell you everything,
That I now know I shouldn't have done.
And I'll tell you everything,
You need to know to be my only one.

I want to be the reason
that her heart keeps on beating.
The feeling of relief
in the air that she keeps on breathing.
But mostly about trust and belief,
that I am the words I speak.
The men who are born strong,
are the ones that will die weak.
Something here does not belong.
The devils I hunt or the angels I seek?
Her face is so beautiful in my eyes.
If only I were the bones inside her cheeks,
because I'd force her to smile each and every day.
What if I turned out to be the one man,
who is privliged to place the ring upon her finger?
It's like wishing I could sing just to be a singer.
But I already wished that I were her scars,
because I wanted to try and heal.
And maybe if I learned to shine like the stars,
she would finally understand the way I feel
every time I look deep enough into her eyes.
It's like I want to be her every dream,
but at the same time I wanna be real.
It drives me nuts and makes me scream,
as my life rolls around like a f*ckin wheel.
I may not be able to stay on this earth forever,
but I truely believe I would always remain in this girl's heart,
even years and years after the day of my horrible death,
just like a farmer would forever haunt his farm.
Through any danger, I would invite her within my arms,
even in hell as the devil and I are face to face,
I would protect my precious baby away from any harm.
My amazing powers come from the thought of her,
my greatest powers are in each beat of my loving heart.
I'm strong enough for a good old demon killing spree,
hell, I could even tear the fricken devil completely apart.
And then I'll take my princess by her small hand,
I will hold her hand for days, and I will hold it tight,
I'll hold her hand every single day and I'll hold it every night,
just so that she'll remember that everything will be alright.
In my dreams, she would be leaning upon my shoulder,
because I would always be only one inch to her right.
This commitment would go on and on until we're older,
and I suppose I'd probably just die out of spite.
I would run toward the light as my body falls like a boulder,
praying to God on my knees, begging that she go down like a feather.
But on the day of my death, I want her to stay alive,
of course she would come to my funeral, in the terrible weather,
trying her best to stay strong for me, but all she'll do is cry.
She'll cry so hard and scream out every drop of pain.
She'll then bend down and take a look inside my coffin,
at the sight of a real man's lips, she'll kiss me in the rain.
The soul I've dedicated to her would never bear seeing her that way,
and even though I'm dead, I'd wish that I could feel the same.
However, I'd be so happy that we enjoyed the long love ride,
and even though she wasn't strong, I'm still glad that she tried.
She took over my entire life from the first day that I met her,
but there will be a second chance as long as we deserve it.
My plans for the next ride are to make it so much better,
there will be a spot waiting for us, because I already reserved it.
And my baby did, indeed drop dead like calm feather.

(Crystal's Words)
Never before did I believe a friendship could be so great,
now that I've met you our bond is impossible to break,
your kindness and charm has put a smile on my Face,
you make me feel so happy when my life is a big disgrace,
I wish I could take away all your sadness,
I wish I could hug you and take away this madness,
I wish I could smile at you and brighten up your lonely days,
I wish I could be there for you in every possible way,
I wish we could talk all the time
theres just not enough time in the day,
I wish I could promise you everything will be fine,
I wish more then anything that you'd be mine.
(Matt's Words)
I wish you'd give me two signs,
one that says I love you and one that shines.
I wish every angel was amazing like you are.
Even when we hug you seem too far.
You're so beautiful, you glow like the brightest star in the sky.
I'd like a piece of the love in your heart.
I'll get rid of all my past mistakes.
I want to love you, like a bullet I'm willing to take.
Ill accept your death so you don't have to die.
I'll give you my every breath, so you can breathe and theres no need to try.
Ill always tell you the truth and never lie.
As if I were the star of the north, I'll be your guid.
I'll walk you thru life and stay by your side.
Just stay with me, there's no reason to hide.
Shoot for the stars and dont look down.
Keep your head up babe, theres no reason to frown.
I want to be the reason you stay alive.
I'll remain in your heart forever, like a bee in a bee hive.
(Crystal's Words)
When I Think of you the first thing I do is smile,
im not a determined person but for you I'd run for miles,
My feelings towards you are oh so strong,
between you and I I don't want anything to go wrong,
your perfect to me in every single way,
I promise you my love forever I mean every word I say,
I didnt think the perfect guy would ever come along,
but you have and together we belong,
forever and ever you'll always be in my heart,
I love you matty I hope we never grow apart.
(Matt's Words)
I can't believe I found the best girl so soon.
What are the chances, it's like the sun has met the moon.
So now I'll always hum this tune,
because it's the tune I was humming when we first met.
There's something I have to say,
and I don't want you to forget,
that I love how you look at me this way.
Your heart showed me a better way to live.
Your lips taught me how to forgive.
Your words got me to try, and your arms helped me to fly.
Your pain made me want to help, so I decided to wipe away your tears,
to fill the cracks of your heart and live in there for years.
I hope you feel this love I'm making as it takes form.
You can live near the fire in my heart, hopefully it will keep you warm.
You can run into my arms, and Ill hold you thru this storm.
All night long I will hold you like a shoulder.
I told you we're getting older,
and it's time to decide what we want for the rest of our life.
because I will be your husband, if you'll be my wife.
We both always felt so alone.
But now we're in love, sinking like stones.
(Crystal's Words)
for the longest time I felt sad & alone,
now that we've met I want it to be known,
I know longer feel dead inside,
instead I feel this sensation thats so hard to explain,
slowly over time your words have taken away my pain,
I know longer feel as though I'm fading away..
if I could be with anyone at this moment
itd be In your arms that I'd want to lay,
you pick me up when I'm feeling lonely and down,
during this time we've spent together its happiness that I've found,
you can't begin to imagine how much you mean to me,
maybe one day I'm the future you'll see,
every bone in my body aches to be closer to you,
I honestly hope deep down you could say you feel this way to,
it would b such an honor to b considered your wife,
I wanna live forever with you in my life.
(Matt's Words)
I'll give you this ring, if you're willing to take it.
my heart will continue to sing, as long as you don't break it.
follow me into eternity, I know that we can make it.
if we saw a heart along the road, maybe we would follow it.
if you tasted my kiss in your mouth, I hope you would swallow it.
like a pill that you need, a strong addiction to love.
it starts off like a seed, and it grows so far and high above.
in the breeze, it will fly over the sea. beyond the trees
and beyond the stars into sweet sweet heaven,
its like a wish from eleven eleven.
love lives above and below the clouds.
it feels greater than happiness, and it's better than being proud.
we live our lives like a dream,
where no one else is allowed.
only me and cwissy cakes topped with whipped cream.
rainbow jimmies and a cherry.
but nothings as good as the seed we chose to burry.
and now that you think of me so high,
I don't want you to think of me any less.
I would feel like I deserve to die,
I would really be that depressed.
but I want you to know that even when I'm gone,
this road for you will still be long.
you'll be surrounded by the sky and the lawn,
and I'll be there to keep you strong.

I sit and stare at the same walls each night,
without a word I listen to the arguments,
and I feel like I started the fight.
It may seem wrong, but it feels so right.
It's a load that's so hard to carry,
a friend who's hard to burry,
and a girl I love but I'll never marry.
My hope is dying as my trust is crying,
but still I'm fu*kin trying
to reach the top of these stairs.
I have a billion miles ahead of me,
and then I have to swim across the sea,
before I fall above to a place,
that's so full of grace
once I've gone without a trace.
And I'll leave my trasure behind,
at the top of the stairs,
for my special lover to find,
but no one has love to share.
I floor the peddal
but never bother to steer.
The walls are metal,
but death should not be feared.
I thought I had finally down and settled,
but no one is here,
to answer when I call.
And if no one catches my tears,
who will catch me when I fall?

I felt a calling forth
As the wind had whistled.
I knew it, of course,
It must be crystal.
A girl with diomand eyes
And a pair of angel wings.
She looks so beautiful to me.
I hope she knows these things.
But does she know the pain,
When her lips are too far away to kiss?
Does she see the rain,
And does she feel this?
Nobody has the power she has on me,
Nobody else could ever take me away.
It feels like heaven,
Just to hear her voice.
And when I see her face,
I know I'm making the right choice.
As we start off swimming thru ponds,
We'll die in ships along the sea.
A perfect place to be together,
And a perfect place to dream.

Hard times come and hard times go
Mistakes are better than perfection
Without mistakes, what would you know?
We're humans and nothing less
We're humans and nothing more
We're not the best
And we don't deserve to be adored
Only trying to enjoy life
In any way we possibly can
It's never gonna be fair
But that's how boys become men
It's like a totally brand new person
With the same old name
We need to learn from mistakes
So we can play harder games
I want my bones to break
And I want it to f*ckin hurt
I want to fall to the ground
Just to get up and brush off the dirt
I want to go all the way down
Because it's the only way I can get back up

I blew a breeze thru your window last night,
so that you would know I was there.
I wasn't sure if you needed to know,
I wasn't even sure if you cared.
You must have caught a scent of my breath
when you got up to walk downstiars
and saw me sitting on the couch.
I'm not afraid of death,
but I was afraid you'd throw me out.
I told you, "I'd give you the world,
every piece from right to left
just to see your eyes open."
If you'd let me,
I can fix the bond we've broken
and say all the things I should have spoken
because I don't have the chances I had with you before.
You took me by the hand
and walked me to the door.
I didn't understand
why you didn't love me anymore.
I said, "We changed our plans,"
and that I might die in war.
But death does not mean I'm not your friend.
Aimee, you've given me something
that will never come to an end.
You let go of my hand
and slowly turned that knob.
I felt like I failed all my plans
as I was begging you to stop.
I tried my best to make you understand,
that I'm heading toward the top
and I'm about to become a man.
I took my precious kingdom
and turned it into worthless sand.
I took all the pain you had inside,
and made a garden of beautiful plants,
just so you knew I'd kiss you
if I had one more chance.

I cryed today, I fell to the ground,
thinking how I thought that life was so great,
I guess I lied to myself again.
I tryed to love but I could only feel hate.
I can't forgive the friends I thought I had,
because I realized that I can't forgive myself,
for letting them dick me over from the start.
And I can't forgive myself for all my wrongs.
I'm trapped in a state of mind where I don't belong.
And it's too late to decide I don't want these addictions
that I've created all by myself.
There are just so many conflictions
that you have brought upon me.
But it's too late to forgive you for leaving,
because I will never forgive myself for letting you go.
For stealing from all the people I love the most.
It's too late to let you know,
that I will always love you,
because my love is just a ghost.

It feels like it's been forever,
since I last saw your face.
Thought you'd always be here,
before you disapeared without a trace.
Now I'm begging you for your voice.
I need to connect with you in some way,
but I don't really have a choice.
One day I'm holding an angel in my arms,
and the next day I'm burning in hell.
You left behind a long road of harm,
its never been this hard to get up when I fell.
I can't let go of the days we used to spend,
now when your with me, it's only pretend.
I can touch your face, and kiss your lips.
I can hold your waist, and look in your eyes.
I can cry on your shoulder, tears of joy,
because I swore that you were gone.
I feel your breath as you whisper in my ear,
but then the drugs always seem to ware off,
and your gone, and I relive this fear,
each and every night without one true kiss.
So why did you leave me here like this?
Didn't you love the way I cared so much?
You should have stayed like you promised.
because we can learn to love, we can learn to trust,
we did it before, and we could do it again.
I've saved your life, and you can save mine.
We can be one again, we could be just fine.
I want you to tell me its ok, and hold my hand,
but if you really want me out of your life,
I guess can try to understand.

For every moment of happiness,
there are 5 moments of misery.
Everytime you fly a hundred feet,
you'll fall 500 feet into the ground.
After all this time of hiding and seeking,
what have I found?
Everytime I'm smiling,
in the mirror there's a frown.
And everytime I walk the perfect road,
I always turn around.
I always find myself in the same place,
with the same expression on my face.
Maybe all the places I check for positivity,
is actually as far away as it could be.
I can't just have enough faith
to just run without thinking I'm running the wrong way.
Farther from everything I've ever had,
farther from every I could ever have.
I keep thinking that it's not all so bad,
but it's to the point where I can't even laugh.
I can't laugh at myself when I fall anymore,
I can't smile when an angel comes to help me,
becuase I could never trust a single one of them.
I'm against myself, and I'm against the world.
So where is help from here.
Where is help, when theres nothing left but fear.
I've become crazily insanely f*cking mental.
And I'm just hoping maybe next time I fall,
it won't be as gentle

She took me by suprise,
but that was long ago.
I looked into her eyes
as she touched my neck
and kissed my lips.
But that was long ago.
She looked into my eyes,
and I took her by suprise,
as I held her hand
and rubbed her cheek
to make her smile.
That was long ago.
We must have walked
that long road for miles.
And I forgot my way back home.
I must have sold my soul
for less than a buck,
as I turned my back
and wished that girl some luck.
But I forgot my way back home.
She took me by suprise
but that was long ago

I feel like I'm the only star
that doesn't have a reason to shine.
My past has run away so far,
that I feel like it's not even mine.
And my head just hurts so bad,
because I keep on thinking of you.
My heart is torn in half,
but you won't come back to fix it..
And I would love to wish you were farther,
but I don't want to risk it.
Because every day is harder,
and I can't just pretend that everythings fine.
I've always loved you no matter what,
but I can't do that this time.
Whenever you held my hand,
you let it go.
Whenever I touched your hair,
you cut it off.
And every time I let you touch my heart,
you ripped it out.
You ripped it out every single time,
and every single time it hurt so bad.
And now that you're gone,
I'm finally ready for the pain.
But now that I'm ready for the pain,
it's finally, just too late.

How much time have I spent,
thinking I still had that special power,
where I could control the look on your face,
that precious power, a treasure I can't replace.
I thought it was love, but maybe it was just a game.
My heart's been broken many times before,
but this seems a differant kind of pain.
I don't want to love you this way anymore,
but I cant stop pretending,
that theres still something for us in the future.
The nightmares, I'm just used to having,
there are dreams that I would never let die,
promises I could never break, even if I tried.
And I've been so afraid about what might happen to you,
if the next chance you had to hold my hand,
I couldn't feel it. And if you tried to kiss my lips,
it wouldn't wake me. And I'm afraid that you'll hate me,
for all the stupid things I've done since you left,
it's getting harder and harder to see the light,
and I can't erase the marks you've drawn on my chest.
It would mean so much to me tonight,
if you said I could have a kiss only once in a while.
It might not mean much to you, I know,
but it would definately make me smile.

What would my life be like,
If I put my heart inside my head?
What kind of words would I write?
What was that phrase I always said?
Take my mind and squeeze it between my lungs.
Maybe then I'd know who to love, who to hate,
Who to trust, and who to shake.
What if I had a brain, instead of a heart?
A heart besides a brain?
Maybe then I'd be smart,
Or maybe I'd just go insane.

In the cold, underneath a tree,
I'd drink from the river in the rain.
I'd cry out, with all of my pain,
"My God! Can you hear me out there?"
He answered me like in veign,
"My man! I'm always here.
Without me, you'd live in fear."
Underneath that tree,
I looked around to see,
a place I could sleep that night.
I called out with all my fear,
" My dear, where are you now?"
Without a word, she opened up her arms,
and held me with all her heart.
She said, "Don't ever let me go,
or else this world around us will fall apart."

Just another day,
waking up in the morning,
wondering why I've stayed again.
Everything looks the same,
every minute, I hear my name.
Ten voices that drive me insane.
It's just another week,
wishing I'd gone away.
Why do you continue to speak?
What the f*ck are you trying to say?
Am I a project failed?
Am I a f*cking robot?
There are seven seas I haven't sailed.
And you want me to be something I'm not?
It's a day, it's a week, it's a year.
It's a minute, a season, a fear.
Who am I and where do I belong?
I have water, air, and food,
there's just one thing missing
that I need to live, a reason!

A blur in thick air.
How much do you expect me to care?
This place is special,
but I'm more of nothing than anything.
I'm stupid, I blocked the sun
as I wrapped my shaddow around the earth.
This blur, this thick air is like wind,
it's so strong and hard to get thru.
I saw an empty hole in his chest
where his heart should be.
But his soul was made of steal
and his pride couldn't be broken.
"I wish I could love," he said,
"I wish I wanted to live,
but I'd rather be dead.
I want to get as much as I give,
but karma won't work that way.
Even angels turn their backs on me,
once you teach them to fly,
you'll never see one again."
I told him my heart had died,
but I never did for some reason.
I was looking in a mirror.

She handed me a pistol.
As she shook, she said,
"Kill me in five seconds,
or you'll be dead."
She took out her gun
as a tear slipped down her face.
So I wasted a moment
to wipe that tear away.
I felt love for her.
But in a moment
that love turned to hate.
So I took a moment
to look at the trees above
as birds flew from them
toward the sky.
I felt my anger increase,
but the love was still there
and I didn't know why.
When the fourth moment came,
I wondered who was going to die.

How many minds do I have?
Vacations only last an hour.
Day by day,
it surprises me everytime.
My precious piece of art.
She walks over diomands
as she holds my heart.
Her wings drip of blood.
And she asks me,
"Am I understood?"
I just hope she's reading my mind.
Because she's that girl
I never thought I would find.

I was always god in the devil's situation.
I was always the innocent soul
Who always offered to take the blame.
And no matter how innocent I was,
I always felt completely ashamed.
I can't believe that ice can catch on fire.
I was a good man, I was a liar.
I had a theory for quite some time.
The trees are meant to grow to heaven
So we can climb to the top.
But instead we cut them all down,
So we can build out small pieces of hell.

Fires of the forest grow
as all the rivers dry
like a man's first impression
as you dit to watch him cry
within his lonely depression.
So deep, he can no longer try
to count the day's of his lesson
of understanding why he's here.
Take a walk in his shoes, see thru his eyes,
find your soul free of fear,
and feel the exact pain, afraid or not afraid.
You'll always cry the nights away
underneath the stars that shine,
holding these secrets and thinking to yourself,
"This knowledge is only mine."

We walked alone like creatures extinct along abandoned streets.
I loved you more than God could ever imagine.
The leaves flew like birds from the branches
as the clouds broke down into little doves that fell like dead snow.
Your arms got stuck around my waist.
And my eyes were chained to your pretty face.
Our kisses stopped the world
like your hair trapped in motionless wind.
When I turned around, and your eyes were still on fire,
I lifted your legs and walked into the eternal shadows.

You are the rain that falls, the sun that shines,
the angel that flys and takes over minds.
Without you, the world would have no beauty.
From the grass, to the flowers,
to the bushes and the glowing trees,
growing from the water and light that you provide.
You are the beautiful, pleasent breeze,
blowing peacefully, forever by my side.

...and there you were, a drawing of lead that never fades
Shining beauty upon beauty
Is it strange?
The way I miss you before your even gone.
Can it change?
Like a sun of darkness before dawn.

Everyday without you feels like another eternity
It's been an hour but it feels like a million years
It's just one drop, but it holds the feeling of a million tears
And it all drys beneath the sun
Just a few moments before dawn

You are the sun that brightens up my life
Hiding in darkness
These are the last moments I have to live
There will be nothing left
Burn it all, you're everything
And everything is gone
I gave you the world, and you'll bring it with you
When you leave me with nothing
Just a few moments before dawn

A whisper, a soft, calm breath
Slowly becomes the most violent scream
Just like a child, slowly growing to his death
And we plead, we plead its a peaceful dream
And we bleed, we bleed a crimson stream
With a pattern of tears and beating hearts
Families, like forests burning
The trees go one by one, as it slowly falls apart
Faster and faster by moment, my world is turning
Spinning beyond my control
When my strength and knowledge are useless powers
Everything ends, we all take our toll
And some are gifted extra hours
But even hearts of stone have to crack some time...

Because when the wind blows,
the windmills don't forget to chime,
and the doors don't forget to close.

It may be dark in that room
But beauty is always in existance
Because outside, flowers begin to bloom
Even if it's far out in the distance

And then days will come, and turn into nights
Even cold winters will become summer, so hot
When beauty is no longer beautiful sights
As the colors begin to rot
Like the way reflections fade
And where the last tree burned, another will grow
It's branches will provide shelter, and shade
Which will be there to let us know
The end is not true
It lives on forever, so it can help us through
And though we all die, we never...

R. I. P.
Mike Wells
1/12/63 - 7/21/06

I spent my days, with nothing but reasons to die.
I forgot about the truth, the day I learned how to lie.
I learned how to steal, and forgot how to give.
I was just a hundred pounds of dirt and shit.
Until you came along, with a couple reasons to live.
I fell to the ground, but it didn't hurt one bit,
because you were there to kiss away all the pain,
before it reached me, before it even had the chance to hit.
You washed my blood, as if you were the rain,
and gave me permission for a second chance.
And it's going just the way you said it would go,
I can't get you out of my head, I really just can't,
you are special to me, and I thought that you should know,
that I can't get you out of my sight when your around,
I can't get you out of my heart, and I can't make a sound,
because I'm afraid of waking myself from this perfect dream.
You said that we could work, and thats exactly how it seems.
You are the girl of giving, because you give important things like hope,
especially when you smile, and make it seem like it's all my fault.
It makes me feel strong, like I can climb mountains without any rope.
I'll take your weakness, and make it my own.
I'll cry your pain away, so you don't feel alone,
and I'll hold you in my heart, as you sink like a stone,
for every single moment that you choose to keep.
And if this is a dream, I beg you to just let me sleep.

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lol cant be assed to read all

lol cant be assed to read all this, but i like a couple


We all have a sob story, but mines worse lol
dont argue