I gave in again
Trying to control my circumstances
I forget it can never be done
I lie in bed
Thinking of the millions of reasons
To fall asleep forever
I keep trying to listen for You
Searching for you in the dark
I’m abandoned on this boat
A hurricane of emptiness
Stormy waters crashing in
These waters have run my life
Full of broken memories
Of a depression I harbored
Helm this disaster I’ve made for myself
I rely on Your constant wind
A wind of hope
Help my boat jibe
To the direction I don’t want to go
O Lord, don’t make me go
I’m looking around me
Predators are near
Born out of my anxiety
Focus
Stand still
See
Looking at compass of Your promise
I desperately hold on to it
Help me find my way
Be Your Own Compass
.
Better your damaged direction giver than someone else's.