The Need To Belong
I feel the need to belong
I let my desires get the best of me
I changed who I am
Just to please others
When it was I,
Who wasn’t satisfied and proud of me?
I left the people
That I truly value
Behind in the dust
I let my true friends slip away
I let my life slip away
I let everything
That I once was in control of
Slip away from me
I lost it all
When I wasn’t myself
I tried to please others
When it was I,
Who played the fool?
I got used and burned out
I let everything go
I felt the need to belong
That strong desire inside of me
Waiting patiently to burst out
For that one chance
For me to make a jackass of myself
Without even knowing it
Until it was too late
In that process
I lost most of my friends I valued
Ones that I’ve worked hard
For our friendship(s)
To be based on truth, honesty, trust, loyalty, and meaningfulness
I’ve worked hard to achieve all this
Yet in the end, I lost it all
For playing the pitiful fool
I changed myself for others
The one thing I couldn’t change
Is who I am at heart?
I can change my friends
But, I can’t change my emotions and thoughts on how I still feel for them
It’s controllable, but still, I feel the need to belong