Can i tear outcha heart baby
Ya better say yes
Don't say maybe
Cause i'll do it anyway
I'm a little sick and twisted
i'll make you hurt and pay
Crazy little lady
my minds as dark as my soul
i'm more then just shady
Gothic dolls
Eyeliner
black lipstick
Its all essential...
if your me
and yall never be free
Cause i suffer insanity
or so the doctors say
well really i'm normal
those called normal
their the screw loose ones
i'm not insane i'm me
Ya call me unstable
say im never able...
to find a little sanity
im not crazy
instead im just not afraid to laugh
or be spontainious
so i'm not reserved
and i'm laughin
for what seems to you no reason
well i'm just remberin funny things
im not sorry for bein able to laugh
to hell with society
just stop tryin to fit in
better bein you and truely happy
then unhappy just to fit in
and all i've got left to say is...
i'm not insane i'm me
no i'm not insane i'm me
I'm just me
not isane
I'm me
In the corridors of my mind…
Voices speaking
Voices shrieking
Voices seeking
To rob me completely blind.
In the hallways of my soul…
Voices yelling
Voices telling
Voices spelling
Out loud, their goal.
In the alleys of my heart…
Voices willing
Voices killing
Voices spilling
My blood, thick and dark.
Your looking at me
And laughing at how i dress
But i don't do it to impress you
Your jealous that i'm not afraid to be me
When your a sheep to society
I say love is pain
Yeah love is pain
The funny thing is
I thought I was to blame
My feelings now Is truly M.O.D.
Cause money ova d**k
Is what’s now in me
You see me, I got love for no n***as
One n***a jump stupid
I’ll be forced to pull da t***ga
You askin’ me why I despise them
Yeah why hide it
You n
n***as lie and deceive
But that is not what got me to write this thesis
How one n***a can hurt a girl so bad
Then the next one who said he wouldn’t
Hurt the girl just as bad
I am not writing just to have fun
I’m writing because if I didn’t
I might have used a g*n
It is so funny to them
Yes, this I know
Because to hurt all the women
Means power to those h*es
And yes I call men hoes
But it’s for one simple reason
It lets them no how much
I hate to even see them
Now you may call me crazy
Or you may call me wrong
But like a poet I make love to these words
Like a rapper would to his song
Now it seems so unbelievable
Yes I’m only seventeen
But if you’d seen what I seen
You’d probably be just as mean
Now this doesn’t mean I’m dike’n
It just means that I’m real
I got one for the females
This one here will reveal
Exactly how I hate them too
And why I say they aint real
Now this one is for the females, yes I hate you too
I know you don’t like me because I’m prettier than you
Well it’s not my fault that Jah blessed me so well
Sitting here thinking of you
Missing all the things we would do
Knowing that i can't see you again
Never being able to feel you again
I've changed for the better i hope you do too
But know I will never again be with you
It's funny how you hurt me
But i took it all in
It hurts you to see that i happy again
Wait did you think i would keep on crying
Sorry if it hurts you, but i'm not crying
I've cried for too long
It's time to move on
Don't worry about me
I'll just keep getting strong.
I don't want it anymore.
Take it away.
Let me be happy,
with what I have today.
I can't live with this grief,
Let me die in some peace.
Emotions slit your wrists,
from this world a release.
Acts of desperation consume my mind
Bloodlust and pain are constantly eating away at me
It burns inside, this craving I can't describe
The color of life is all I see
I hope my desperate acts wither and die
My breathing is hard and fast
Sweat beads off my pores
I shake at the beautiful tenderness of the flesh
What it keeps inside is my everything
I can't fight off this feeling
I can't stop turning into a terrible person
I'm desperate to feel the warmth pass through my lips
As it splashes off my teeth
Like a wave crashing onto a lonely shore
To feel Alive again is what I need from you now
This act of desperation is my last
I will be done after this night
I can never live with what I am going to do
Your very soul will be a part of me
I love you always and forever
I thank you for letting me take you
But I will never be able to handle this
Turning you into me
Draining life and souls to live
You will do desperate things like me
But you will never find anyone who loves you like I do
You gave me your soul
And I give you life eternal
Darkness chokes out the last rays of light.
Bringing the horrors of the night.
Scratches and scrapes, fallowed by scary cries.
Tell me to run for all I am. As I cry.
Tears of fear fall free of my eyes.
As those that run with me die.
Sounds of men chocking with blood,
As if we are running through a bloody flood.
My legs ach, my lungs burn
As I feel my body twist and reshape as I turn,
I know I was cursed, to die!
But why?
Am I forsaken to live? Am I?
Why must this curse consume me!
Why does it fill me with a new me?
Me! New feelings, new smells of fear.
While those around me die with fear.
Am I to kill them? Am I so damned?
So cursed to die, without my family.
Now I truly cry. Loosing the damn
Flooding my home in blood. I die.
But now I am living, to repent, to try.
Hear I am with the new dawn.
Listing to the cry’s of the bleeding fawn.
The sounds of crows and vultures feasting.
The cries of the dying waiting.
Waiting for the final stroke of death.
Now I must go. To the far left.
For to the right, is the rest of humanity.
Why must I leave you ask?
I must search for my sanity.
-End-
i lay here in a nightmare,
were im tourtured,
i cant get away,
look at those around me,
wishing i could find you,
were are you,
i start to cry but i hear a voice,
it says dont cry im here,
here with you tonight,
were its comeing from,
i dont really know,
im awake now,
im in my bed,
i look over your by myside,
u kissed me softly,
as i looked into your eyes,
u wiped away my tears,
u told me not to cry,
i smiled as i wraped my arms around,
we layed back down to sleep,
i whisperd into your ear,
i love you so much my love,
so dont cry tonight,
im here with you now,
im not going any were my love,
i kissed the back of your neck softly,
and wiped a tear from both of our eyes,
im yours and yours alone,
i love you my beloved and i always will؟