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8 May 2012 - 1:19am
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cutting

I feel the sharp sting
See the shine of the steal blade
As it cuts into my skin
As I gasp in shock
The blood comes rushing to the surface
The color brings me back to reality
Relising it was just a flash back
To the days i needed pain to focus
To get through the day
Before they knew
Before they called me on it
Before i got help
And before the scars got washed away
And the walls came crashing down
And other peoples pain brought me joy
Before their love brought me back
From the dead and saved me from drowning on my own hate

im sorry for the spelling not my best subject

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17 May 2012 - 7:03am
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drowning on my own hate......

drowning on my own hate...... This I understand, for over 30 years I tried/have tried to deal with it ....I dealt with it by Fighting ... I liked the pain,and the need to show I could get up no mater what......But the Pain was the Drug of choice
It made Me feel alive..... So Yeah I understand .... spelling was not my best subject Either In fact I failed English completely...rofl.....Who's to say whats good or bad Keep writing ....It works for Me ~DD ~

Every story-teller bends the myth to his own purpose. that's why a Hero has a thousand faces

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16 May 2012 - 5:15pm
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thank you guys its my first

thank you guys its my first poem and it means a lot thanks agine

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13 May 2012 - 12:59am
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hate feeling like that,

hate feeling like that, lingers on your emotions. a constant sadness, i feel you yo. in my case i didn't bother anyone with it cause i didn't wanna be a burden. but at the same time bottling it all up sucks as well. like a double edged sword

Beyond the scope of light,

Beyond the reach of dark..

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10 May 2012 - 12:49am
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i defs kno how this one

i defs kno how this one feels. except i didnt get help. good job tho.

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29 July 2012 - 6:45am
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thank you......i didnt want

thank you......i didnt want the help my friend caught me and forced me to get it it didnt help though i cut today for the first time in a while i feel like iv let people down...... :(

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29 July 2012 - 6:12pm
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Oh Hun:( its ok. U just hafta

Oh Hun:( its ok. U just hafta fond that something that takes the pain away.

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30 July 2012 - 2:39am
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i have but its causing myself

i have but its causing myself pain i dnt like mental pain,physical is easier to control its easyer to understand

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30 July 2012 - 4:46am
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If it causes more pain then

If it causes more pain then it doesn't take the pain away..

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30 July 2012 - 4:56am
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It's they only thing that

It's they only thing that helps iv tried other stuf no help

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10 January 2014 - 1:57am
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I totally understand what you

I totally understand what you mean. Cutting is like a way to let go of everything you have bottle up. For me it helps to give relief to the darkness in my life. But, like you I have gotten help. It helps if you confide in someone who you trust with your life. That person for me  is my step mom. I know when I need help I can go to her. Find someone that you can trust with your enitre being and let some of your load off. I haven't cut for a month and I stuggle with the thought of doing it everyday but don't feel like you let any one down because it is a stuggle and it is hard to cope with cutting. If people judge you because of that then you need to get them out of your life because they are not good for you.

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