"Goodby3"
I've been feeling quite empty these past few nights
Finding myself just laying in bed watching the clock take my time
In life, shouldn't there be more?
Is there something out there I should be looking for?
I've begun to develop imaginary friends
Talking to my crimson walls, and these shadows don't pretend
I find that if I close my eyes
I can see the beauty they describe
But when I open them, I see
All the hate, the lies, the greed
So, for now, I think I'm done trying to cope
For now, I've waved the white flag, given up hope
And don't tell me I don't know shit or I'm insane
You can't understand how I feel, until you've lived inside my brain
It's intolerable, it's fucking pain
A mess I've made, constant re-arranging
I fucking hate letting go
But there's no more hands reaching for me to hold
I've never been a quitter, but life shows me no reason to stay
I've been destroyed, inside and out, nothing ever goes my way
So tonight, as I've been writing these words
I've realized life is only going to get worse
And I find myself closer to this basket of knives
So I bid farewell to whoever reads this, tonight I take my life