Slip Away

Please don't leave me
i can't let you go
lets not fight, not tonight
please just hold me, hold me tight
'cause i keep losing myself.
To prideful to ask for help,
no one to ask anyhow.
somehow my list of friends has gone down
guess i got tired of them leaving
so i left them
now they're the ones grieving
and this is where i am.
alone in the dark
with a bottle of scotch
no one to see me
no one to watch
as i drink away my sorrow
just waiting for tomorrow
waiting for the sun to rise
than to put up my disguise
of happiness
of ignorant bliss
of not wanting any other life than this
its all a lie. can you see?
i aint really fucking happy!
my lives a bitch
oops there must be a glitch
cuz i don't say that kinda shit
cuz im innocent
fuck that shit i don't care
i thru it away without a second glance
i can't get back. not a chance.
but i don't care
life aint fair
i might tear
but i aint fucking giving in
i know i won't win
but you won't have the satisfactory
of being the one who broke me
cuz only i can break me
only i know my weaknesses
only i can set myself free
cuz i can chose to forgive
breaking the power that you have!
i can choose to live
the life i wanna have!
but I've come to the point
where theres to sides of me
one y'all see and one only i can see
and i don't know who i wanna be
cuz i don't wanna lose either of me!
but it seems the more i fight it
the more power it gets!
and slowly i am losing all my friends
this keeps happening again and again
its come to the point where i can't stand
and theres no one there to lend a hand
i stand alone on no mans land
cuz i am no mans
i don't know where i belong
i thing I've forgotten how to be strong
I've forgotten my hearts song
it don't sing anymore
it hurts now more than ever before
it screams in pain as you walk out the door
should have known better
than to think you would stay
i always screw it up some way
ya everyone always slip away….