I'm Sorry, Arshawn

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A Beautiful Life

I'm sorry for being bitchy a lot lately,

I just can't help but succumb to anger.

You've always went through good and bad times,

Although I don't know how you managed to do that.

 

Guilt would pall over my head

And tears would flow down my face.

I couldn't ever forgive myself for it.

I've never meant to hurt you like this...

 

You've always been like a big brother to me.

From all the shit we've gone through together,

You still hung on to the care you have for me.

And my hopes of you staying till the end are fufilled.

 

Those days where I was about to end my life,

You've help me go through the pain

And made me remember why I held on for so long.

You made me realize why I had hope in the first place.

 

I'm sorry about how I didn't really return your feelings before,

I just couldn't find a reason that love was better

Than our close friendship that we still have today.

But I still love you as a brother no matter what.

 

I'm so sorry for always being mad

Whenever you try not to be an asshole

And try to make us both happy after having an argument.

I was always afraid that you were going to leave me someday...

 

I'm so afraid of losing my only best friend...

It hurts so much whenever you hurt me and make me cry,

But it hurts even more when I keep the fire burning

And make you yell at me violently.

 

I'm sorry for every shit that I make you go through

And being too much of a burden than I normally am.

It's alright if you'll never forgive me one day

And decide to just wallk out the door in peace.

 

I'm so sorry...

Please don't leave me...

I'm sorry for everything,

But I want you to know that I love you.

Author's Notes/Comments: 

2/12/2013

 

Emotional night for me... I really didn't mean to be really angry for a couple of weeks for no reason and vent out at everyone, including you. So, if you're reading this, I want to let you know how I really feel...

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