To find love
is the ultimate goal
you have to be willing to get hurt
so many times
it becomes a struggle
to put yourself out there
just to be broken
but one day
the unknown
and the most beautiful thing to have happen
comes crashing into your world
the thing only you and that other person
can truly understand
because its different
with different people
your whole world gets turned upside down
not sure to enjoy it or to run and hide
when do you know what to do
how do you know if its love
i want to fall in love
to have a great relationship
a connection
that is only known between
him and i
am i asking too much
i have no problem with the single life
its been a while since i have had someone special
tons of guys like me
half the time they think im hot and want ass
i want to be seen as beautiful
i want the guy to see me for who i am
some of the guys do know me for me
but i dont want them
im so confused
i like this guy
i feel like im pushing him away
and nothing will ever work
i never knew it was this hard
hes a nice guy
which is a first
i normally get the assholes
who miss treat me
maybe i dont know how to get and keep a nice guy
sometimes i think i should stick to friends
and only friends
and if something happens
then great
but if not oh well
how come the one guy i like
isnt as easy as the others
hes making it all so hard
i could pick some slimeball
who would be easy to get with
and who would prob treat me
like shit
but would be something.
it makes me miss my dad
who would love me
but not like a companion
but like a guy
a girl being there is different than any guy could be
maybe im just getting in my head
and making things worse than they really are
who knows
one day i will find that guy
i dont need to find the one
to help fill the void of my dad
but someone to fill the emptiness
that is make me so lost and confused
right now
to find love