twist and bend, the squiggle of smoke rises and fades,
i watch the grey disintigrate into the black velvet night.
i scratch and tear at the wounds that desperately try to mend themselves together,
i feel the bones poke through the vital blanket of flesh.
one. two. three. four.
your heart beats, ticks, like a hand grenade beneath the surface,
do not give it to me - keep it and allow it to explode within you,
destroy your inner workings and crumple like a useless piece of poet's paper.
xx