I remember that day of fear,
as sadness flowed down with every tear.
The realization came of what happened,
just trying to bring your life to an end.
I remember the look on your face,
when you wouldn't wake up and stayed in the same place.
There were so many things running through my mind,
had your life already ran out of time?
The look of coldness that was upon your lips;
drained throughout your entire body, all the way down to your fingertips.
Your eyes wouldn't open and rolled back when they would,
I contacted your family as quick as I could.
That morning was the most frightening of my life,
causing me so much pain and so much strife.
Why did you do that to yourself?
Didn't you at all realize how much you meant to everyone around?
I couldn't stop crying when looking into your eyes,
the fear running through my heart that you could have died.
This was the worst thing to happen then,
feeling as though I had lost a close friend.
The frigid stare you gave me while in that bed,
was the thing to which my breakdown was lead.
The only help I received was the feeling of your embrace,
it's disheartening to know that it took this to make a change in pace.
Thoughts of that horrible morning still haunt my dreams,
I can't believe now how short life really seems.
You were given a second chance at entity;
and you have chosen not to be blind anymore, but to see.
You have no notion of that day or what it did to me.
I just keep recalling you not waking up, watching people as they screamed.
I still loved you as you would apologize for it everyday,
but what a way to remember my birthday.