From birth straight to my death
I'm gunna live this life till my very last breath
Things going perfect till the age of seven
One of the greatest people in my life died and went to heaven
Getting over that then the next thing I know
Grandma's stoopin to an all time low
Constantly picking up the bottle, taking yet another sip
Was even told that one time she called me a "Lil' Rip"
A "rip" yes that means a "whore"
I know my stories probably giving you a bore
But for as long as I live
You'll take what I got to give
Soon after that Papaw he got re-married
So then his only family may as well be buried
All my life always being Papaw's girl
Now all about her family, it makes me want to hurl
Don't get me wrong, I aint gunna lie
For quite a few years, all I did was try
For the longest time Papaw was all mine
Now you've gone and crossed that thin line
For no one else, I shall show no love
Wanna make your ass soar high above
For so many years to come, I show no trust
No faking shit, not even lust
Don't let them in, keep closing them out
Is this what my future is going to b about
One sunny day, almost eighteen
Those soft calm eyes, making me feel so serene
Giving me the feeling it was going to be Okay
Will I seriously try to keep you away
Nope finally unlocking the cell, letting you in
Then one day, Oh no it happened again
Allowed someone through my hearts door
Then they too threw it on the floor
That's it, not happening again, I'm through
To myself and my feelings I must remain true
If I have to go through it again, I may end my life
Oh my god, Will I ever be someone's wife?
Or will I let my fear of pain take over me?
Hurts so bad, makes me fall to my knees,
and lay flat on my face, just lay there and cry
Laid there so long, just curled up and died
From birth straight to my death
I lived this life till my very last breath