Martyrdom Vapors

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Our brightest days

Are turning into our darkest hours

This storm upon us took me by surprise

I never expected the damage to be done

The pain to be so real

When it hits home like it has

Everything surrounding me blanketed in the darkness



My mind going in infinite circles

Confused about how to deal with the pain

How to deal with everything

You were the one who always got me by

The one whom I could turn to for love and comfort



Then I find it is you who conjured the storm between us

The raging winds that whistles a deadly hymn

I can feel it

The knife in my back

The pouring rain of deceit coming forth

How can I stop this storm?



The reason you conjured this storm

Was because of my own flaws

I've accepted who you are

But you find the things about me

Are too hard to accept

I'm sorry for being me

My flaws make your heart sink



My love for you is great

But your will for this is untrue

How can I keep a clean slate

When you hang the threat of killing me

Over my head like toys over a babys crib



But somehow I feel

That this decision is not yours alone

Theres an outside influence

Another factor to the equation

Maybe its just me

Maybe I'm just weird in that sense

But somehow, this feeling inside of me

Tells me that this decision was not yours alone



But it doesnt matter now

You have your heart set

and I dont want to combat that

You will always be in my heart

Maybe one day you can accept me for who I am

And you can call this storm off of me

I have hope yet, but maybe the time is not yet ripe



One day the answers will become clear to me

I need to find some clarity, some tranquil thought

My mind is still racing around in circles

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