i'll never amount to much
unless my clothes are on your floor
shut the door
secrecy is the key to success.
hushed voices, no one has to know
no one will find out
how many times i said no
until i tell.
the regret can only be drowned in bottles of cheap wine
and stranger's bed sheets
so i can remember their smell
and not yours.
the day i told was the day i hated myself the most
a little slip costing your life
or at least the next few years.
the day i realised what you did was the day i started denying myself
the thought of being human
and being worth something more
than a
dirty
fucking
whore.